Have to start taking tough stands...I have to do the dirty work...

Got a promotion and realised that I now have a more 'organizational' thought process. Obviously part of my responsibility is to see that the organization succeeds not just my projects but I never realised that I would be taking this so seriously.
I was taking decisions everyday when I was running projects but those were easy decisions. The decisions I have to make now are tough decisions because now my job is more about 'people management'. I am going to be having a lot of meanings and telling people where and how they are screwing up. And maybe also the consequences of their mess ups.
Well it is dirty work but I will do it...

Helping Hands are better than Praying Lips...

Good intentions, without actions, are useless.

Evolution...

Don't know if I have written about this already, but I totally believe in the theory of evolution, not mainly because it makes the most sense but because I can see with my own eyes that everything is evolving. Evolving today, evolving now. What was a hundred years ago, isn't the same today. Look at diseases becoming more virulent, look at diseases jumping animals, look at new diseases like SARS, this is all because viruses are evolving.

Anyway I also believe Evolution of one thing causes a chain reaction. If evolutions of something, doesn't cause a reaction, I believe that which has evolved will either change again or will perish. That which has evolved and survived, has made other things also evolve.
Also evolution isn't necessarily of living, breathing, growing species. It also happens in inanimate objects. My whole though on evolution started up because we were talking about 'gratuity' in office. Now my knowledge on gratuity and other taxes is very limited but I know that you will get gratuity back, if you work for 5 years with a company. I couldn't help but think how archaic this law was, especially today and especially in the newer industries and especially in the bigger cities. Today job security is never top of mind. Professionals today are confident in their ability to get jobs. What people look for is better salaries, better job satisfaction, better work culture. This requires many times to switch jobs, which obviously means that people will not be at any company for 5 years. Bottom line, the work environment is changing. The law should be changed so that the 'aam aadmi' or 'salaried middle class' don't feel like they are being robbed of their hard earned money.

Will this happen? I don't know when but I do believe that the law will have to change. It will have to evolve...

0 ambition...

I have been asking myself all sorts of questions but like always come up with nothing.
The first of the questions was the easiest and I have a satisfactory answer. The rest I am still struggling with. This line of question is being pursued because I believe I have no ambition but a lot of ability, and that ability is useless unless there is ambitions. While goals and targets are just as good to see you get to some place, if you have no ambition you don't have goals unless someone sets them for you. The problem, with someone else deciding your goals is that unless they want lots done by you, you will never realise your true potential and never your heart's desire.


1> Are people born with ambition?
I never believe that people are born with anything. Strong believer of nurture over nature. The only thing you really get from parents are physical - features, illnesses, etc. Things like attitude, personality etc, I believe we pick up as we go along and therefore I don't believe that people are born with ambition.

2> Can you develop ambition?
Obviously. Cause if you aren't born with it, it's something that you will develop. This lead me to the more correct question of whether ambition could be developed consciously. Consciously meaning developing ambition with the intent of developing ambition.

3> Assuming ambition can be developed consciously, how does one develop it?
This I still can't figure. Keep working at something? Set goals for self that are difficult? Look at what you might like doing and do it even if it's not something you do regularly? A little of all of the above? I don't know...I wonder if I ever will.

The Chill

Got out of my office building this evening at around 8 p.m. and realized how cool (even cold) it has suddenly become. Of course the entrance to the building has this very high ceiling and these wide walls and therefore the wind really blows there but even as I was sitting the rickshaw, I nearly shivered cause not only was it windy but it was a cold wind.
I feel unhappy that I am in an air conditioned room all day long and am missing out on this fantastic weather. Even when I am home it's either in my room in front of the comp or in the hall in front of the TV - makes me feel guilty about having a terrace.
Maybe this should be my new year resolution - to enjoy 30 mins of fresh air either early in the morning or at night when I am at home. Lets see I'll give it a shot from tom.

Happy New Year

Happy New Year people...

For me (even though December 2006 has been so super) -

No New Year Resolutions - stopped making those a few years back when I realised I don't keep them.

No desires or expectations - except not feeling bad about 2007 getting over, on 31st Dec 2007.

No hopes or dreams - never had any. But if in 2007 I accomplish great things I will be happy.

No goals or ambitions - going with the flow as always.

Though I do wish that all your hope and dreams become realities and that you can accomplish all your ambitions and succeed in all your resolutions.

Have a great 2007.

No I am not partying tonight.

Well not just tonight but I never party on New Years.

Actually I never party - unless it's like an office party - which rarely happens. (lol don't get invited to parties of 'friends').

I don't really see the point of going to parties. I don't drink. I don't dance. I hate dressing up. I don't like dark dingy places with bad ventilation. And I sure as hell don't like the idea of spending money for doing things I don't like.

If I have to 'hang out' with friends, I'd rather do it over coffee / lunch / dinner. For me hanging out means catching up or discussing stuff. So hanging out obviously wouldn't happen in a disco.

About it being New Year's Eve and all of that...I have one word for it - Commercialization. What the big deal what day it is? If you pay anything more than usual for a 'special occasion' it's commercialization.

Anyway I don't understand why people party on the 31st of December. It's actually a day to be sad. I am always depressed on the last day of the year...

Last day of 2006 :'(...

Ya I am always sad when a year ends.



Time just flies too fast....

"We do not seek to be a trend. We seek to matter."...

Found the line on a blog entry and found it very interesting. I think not only the line but also the post not only real substance but deep insight. I mean today everyone wants to be a trend-setter or a trend-follower. Nobody seems to really care about what ads value.
Also when you do things to be a trend-setter, there might be huge success in the start, with minimal cost, but in the long run only those that provide real value last.
I know this sounds too much like corporate talk but it really covers every aspect of life.

Make a wish - its simple...

If you could make one wish for the world, what would it be?

http://www.gifter.org/index.php/million-dollar-blog-post/

1 Comment Wish = $1 to Charity

All you got to do is go and make a wish for the world.
Two minutes to think of what you really want for the world, type it out and submit it at GIFTER.ORG and a charity will get $1.
Two minutes to help someone who needs help...
I think it's worth it.

Disaster time - No water tomorrow...

There is going to be no water supplied tomorrow to the entire city (Mumbai) because of extensive piping work that will be carried out, to help the city get more water on a regular basis.

Firstly let me tell you something I find hilarious but I know it's the right thing to do. My house already had all buckets filled with water. Now usually when we know water is going to go, we fill up only that very morning, but I guess since this is going to be BIG and for the whole day, and therefore everyone is going to fill their water, the tank will get empty sooner than we can imagine.

Secondly, I am so totally going to hate this and therefore calling it disaster time. I mean call me a snob or whatever you like but not having RUNNING water for even a few hours is 'painful'. This is going to last a whole 12 hours.

Thirdly I am terrified about the work not getting done in the alloted time. I mean when has the BMC or any body for that matter promised something will get done on a certain day at a certain time and it actually happens that way?

Fourthly -
I feel soooooooooo totally blessed for getting water 24 hours a day. I also do realise how much I might actually be wasting but I love my running water. If water ever became scare, I would look at it as a luxury and indulge in it. The same with electricity. I feel very blessed for having electricity 24 hours a day too. I am thankful for the ability to put on the AC, 365 nights a year if I want to. To watch television at will. To read a book at 3 a.m....

Good luck to all the poor souls who are not use to facing stinky dirty loos. Good luck to the poor folks who couldn't fill up enough buckets, vessels etc and had to forgo some daily activity. Good luck to those who finally realize how difficult life can be without their daily water supply (if they do get to realize it). Good luck to you and good luck to me.

Merry Christmas

No I didn't party last night.

Who would have ever thought?...

Ever sat back, thought about something and smiled cause you realized that you witnessed (or were a part of) something you didn't think possible?

Well it actually happen a lot to me, and I believe it's because a lot of times I have these notions that would be correct assumptions but are not.

The most recent case being of this guy who works where I work. He's the quiet type and the most you will hear from him is a 'hi how are you?'. The kind of guy who either is an introvert or only friendly (but still quiet) with people he is comfortable with. Now who would have thought that this guy would be such a great dancer? Not me. Of course he had to be pulled out of his shell but once he started dancing, all of us had our jaw on the floor. And not only does Kevin dance very well, he actually makes other people dance well too. Just goes to show that you shouldn't jump to conclusions based on half knowledge.

Thanks Kevin, I had a blast.

Tell me, what becomes of us...? http://www.hemanginigupta.blogspot.com/2005/06/train-to-chennai.html...


I would suggest you first read the blog entry - Train to Chennai. It truly brings to light a reality that all women face. Sexual harassment happens allllll the time. The only thing is that we don't want to call it that cause then we have to accept that it happened. A man falling all over you in a bus or brushing past you 'cause of too many people' around is something that makes every woman uncomfortable, or at least it should. And what do we women do? We move up front in that bush, we write off the asshole as also being squashed and having no option, we try and look away when people are staring, we half run when being eve teased. Too many men get away with harassment and it is not right. I admire women who make a noise and get men who mess with them into trouble. I am the kind who would go and stand ahead in the bus, or someone who will say 'what are you looking at' mildly instead of saying 'I'll poke your eyes out *******'.

I do think the first step is to call all this crap sexual harassment and to put more men behind bars.

Of course the bigger issue if of a bully and people who can't stand up to one. Being vulnerable isn't the best position to be in, and I think we shouldn't make the mistake with our children that our parents made with us. We must realise that standing up and shouting loud is the right think to do, knowing full well that we might be in a little more trouble than we otherwise would have been, if we ran away, but that at the end of the day we won't be ashamed of how we reacted....

Love Google

Won an Ipod (shuffle).

And yes there is a connection to Google.





Mysteries suck.

Hate Meetings

Most meetings are only a waste of time...

We actually had a meeting about - having future meeting....can it get any more pathetic?

Have you lived in Second Life?

Was wondering what it would be like to be a citizen of Second Life.
Didn't do much research but membership if free - I thought it was like an invite thing.
Maybe I'll be a second lifer soon - but knowing me I'll be bored of it soon...

If I were Abhishek, I would never have made the mistake of acting in D2...

Hritik was oh sooooo totally MIND BLOWING in Dhoom2.

Whether it be his look, his scenes, his stunts, his acting - it was all perfect (Also all his muscles - totally perfect).

A Good Years - Swades' inspiration?...

I caught A Good Year (the movie- there is also a novel) with a friend who bought to my notice Swades shared a lot of similarities with this movie. And the more I think about it, the more its true. While Swades might be wound round the protagonists whole Indianess and A Good Year talks more about the protagonists life as a boy, the base story for both seems to be the same. Maybe this kind of story is very common but here the similarities pretty strong.
Only Ashitosh Gaikwad would be able to tell us if he wrote his movie after he read 'A Good Year'.

Too many colours...

Well for once I am posting something on this blog that hasn't been my msn nickname.
Anyway I apologize if you see too many different colours for links on the blog. Was trying to change the template and play around with stuff but since I dont know html or any design coding, things didn't go as planned hehe.

Stop Shouting

Well the incident is a few days old so my anger of that moment has long since ebbed.

But it make me realise that humans are horrible at dealing with their emotions.
We can hardly control our anger and fear. We don't know what to do with our euphoria and misery. All our positive energies get wasted on unless things and all our negative energies just spread and contaminate everything around us.

Well also I was getting yelled at by my mom, who believes I am not responsible enough. I wont totally disagree with that because she isn't totally wrong, but the problem with her approach was that, she thinks it will help when it wont. I am 23 but I get treated as if I were 2 or 3.

Also this nick has significance because I use to yell and scream a lot. I have a very bad temper and a very 'harsh' way of expressing it....but I don't shout anymore. I don't know how come. I guess I am either too tired, too pre-occupied or just more tolerant. And sometimes it even make me smile to think about how easily I might have 'blown up' but how quickly the feeling to lash out, actually disappeared...

It's strange.

Transit

Saw this interesting movie on VH1 called Transit. Now it was nothing earth shattering but it does a great job of showing you how easy it is for AIDS to spread. And also what kind of pre-concieved notions we have about the disease.

If I write a review - I'll put down the link here.

Stay Smart - Stay Safe

World AIDS Day today.

Someone once asked me about what the scariest thing would be for mankind. I thought of Dooms Day scenarios - of meteors hitting the earth, of global warming melting ice caps and submerging all land, of world war 3 with nuclear weapons, etc etc.
A few years ago I thought up the worst scenario possible. Imagine AIDS spreading via mosquito bites. Better still imagine AIDS becoming an air borne disease. The reason this scenario is the worst possible is because it is the most realistic and also the soonest possible occurrence. I mean how long does it take for a virus to mutate? A few years? A few decades?

While researchers are hard at work trying to find a cure, we people are being stupid and spreading the HIV virus very rapidly. I am sure that within a decade there will be a medical cure - one that will kill the virus or even maybe immunize us, not one that will only help us live a little longer. But the reality of today is that millions of people are dying because of AIDS, millions are suffering everyday and millions are catching the disease every year.

3 things make me not only question how foolish we are but also make me upset.
1) We could be destroying a cure to this by cutting down the Amazon forest the way we are.
2) Maybe if we were more open as a nation, India wouldn't be facing the 'crisis' it is facing today. We need to talk about AIDS, we need to see that our kids are educated about it.
3) AIDS is neither a truck drivers disease only nor a disease only of a super rich girl who acts like a slut. It can happen to anyone.

It is all planned

Read my conspiracy theory - Unrest in Maharashtra - Mumbai

Going nuts over Rahul Sharma's Maya

Firstly nick names that don't make others thinks 'Whatsssss going on????' are totally useless.

Anyway Rahul Sharma is the, oh so very, eligible bachelor (or at least was a few months ago - not sure right now though) and obviously therefore, Maya isn't his women after whom I have gone nuts. Its the title of his latest song. It keeps getting played on Channel V and its soooooooo super. Sunidhi Chauhan has done the female vocals for this song. Man is she talented or what?

Anyway I totally love Rahul Sharma's latest stuff because it's a beautiful fusion of Santoor music with a very modern / western mix to it. Makes the music alive and much more appealing (to people like me who aren't into classical music too much).

Try and get a copy and listen to it (that is if you cant be glued to Channel V all day long).

It's now or never

Future promises are empty promises...

I don't want any promises. If it's in front of my eyes it's real otherwise it's just a phantom. Now matter how beautiful / handsome / charming / irresistible this phantom is, it's still just a phantom.

I don't want phantoms, I want tangibility.

I don't have a stomach for BS. I don't have a stomach for promised big dreams. I don't have a stomach for imagined things....

Waiting for G

No G isn't my boyfriend - don't have one.
G isn't my girlfriend either - don't have one of those either.

G is Google.

Naah don't worry I am not silly enough to image they would offer me a job - so it's not a job offer from Google that I am waiting for.

I am waiting for Google to do a deep crawl of my blogs...

Ya sometimes there are anti-climaxes - you just gotta live with it.

Days go by

Days go by
And nothing changes...



So...
one must create change...

So pissed and I can't understand it

Well I know this wont sound like anything major but that day I really WAS pretty pissed. Not anymore cause its already been a while.

Anyway so I got my results for my term exams back and guess what ... an additional answer booklet in my marketing paper was missing. It must have got torn off. Luckily it just had 1 answer - but if it was there I would have got at least 5 - 6 marks giving me a total for around 29 - 30 (out of 50 - in case someone thinks I am such a retard). Now these exams don't count so it doesn't really matter so I am not going beserk about this.

Now the whole 'I cant understand it' is cause firstly these exams are not important so it doesn't matter whether I got a 20 or a 30. Secondly and more importantly I didn't study seriously. I mean for crying out loud I wrote 2 sides in my economics paper cause I didn't know a thing. I knew I was failing (first time in my life and unfortunately I find myself indifferent but again to something that I shouldn't be indifferent towards). Well I actually got 6 out of 50. Which in all honestly is more than I expected. So to put the missing 5 marks for my marketing paper into perspective - it doesn't make sense that I am suddenly bothered about those marks but it still made me angry and upset that I didn't get the 5 marks I deserved and which I worked for.

To cut a long story short - We humans are funny - we don't mind getting nothing if we don't make and effort but if we made and effort and don't get paid for it, we get pissed off - whether our effort matters or not, whether it makes a major difference to our lives or not - we still get pissed off.

Side Effects

Not just pyar ke...
But sab ke...

Everything we do has some side effects right.
We might call these reactions to our actions - consequences or anything else but the fact remains that whatever we do has some kind of negative effect if not on us then on someone else.

The way of the world....?

Satisfaction

Nope it's not the kind you are thinking :P

Isn't it funny how our minds seem pre-conditioned to think in a certain direction. I mean the best example I can think of is the word 'protection'. Which again makes me thinking whether there is pre-conditioned unconscious thought or whether we are being 'programmed' to associate things because we are bombarded by the same kind of messaging all the time.

Anyway this post isn't about the human brain, imagination, pre-conceived notions, etc etc etc. It's about being satisfied. Satisfied at / with what. Well I kept saying I will write about Anita Desai's Fasting, Feasting and I finally did. The posts are broken into Part 1 and Part 2.

I now have satisfaction. And unfortunately how it is, is how it always was and how it will always be - lasting for a very short while.

Which websites do you follow?...

Wanted to get a good list of quality sites to maybe add to my feed reader but only Vivek gave me the 2 sites he follows. Thanks Vivek.

Vivek's suggestions - MarketingSherpa [I love this site too and don't know why but I am a fan of Anne Holland too] and www.adotas.com

ms dewey

If you have really good bandwidth check out www.msdewey.com

Well since I'm into SEM, this is very very interesting. And Microsoft coming up with something like this is even bigger - it just goes to show that not only are they dedicated toward search but they are trying new things to bring in a variety of users. Of course why wouldn't they, its big business.

Anyway this is far away from being a everyday search engine cause it's tooooooo slow. But if they can fix that, I am sure lots of people will enjoy browsing there at least when they are searching in leisure.

The other thing that's interesting is that they must have spent soooo much time on this. Lol just try google, gmail, microsoft, bill gates and any other terms and you will see what I mean.

Back to the grind

Had 4 days off for Diwali and Eid.
They came
and they went
:(

How I wish life was one long vacation....

Happy Diwali

Ya I know I am posting really late and it doesn't really matter but still I thought at least I can wish people and tell them how Diwali was this year. Like I have already said, I totally love Diwali. Mainly because of the fireworks and holidays (I think I use to love the holidays when I was a kid and the fireworks in recent years since I don't get too many days off from work. Also fireworks now are really cool. Only love the ones that go up in the air like rockets and blow up. The 'chakris', 'anars', etc I find a total waste).
Anyway this Diwali I was ill :( but I still did watch a lot of fireworks at night. Also called up and wished quite a few people. I am sure some of them were surprised that I was alive lol and I was glad to know they were alive too. I missed the 'puja' in the house which is okay cause the best part of the puja is the 'mithai' (sweets) anyway which you get even after the puja (prayers). Actually while the pujas don't hold any significance for me, I still enjoy them. Of course if you asked me if I would carry them out, I wouldn't. While I would love the idea that by doing certain rituals Goddess Lakshmi (The Goddess of Wealth) would bless me, I don't quite believe life works that way so why bother.

Anyway I had 4 days off from work and I royally missed school when I would get at least 20 days leave. So I also missed some other things that I usually do before Diwali. Like the 'rangoli' for example. Usually start and help my sis and mom out for a while and then leave it for them to finish up but since I was working on the day they started out, I didn't do one bit of it. Also this year I didn't do any cleaning of my stuff - mom cleaned everything - not that I am complaining or anything hehe.

Anyway I miss the good old days. And thankfully when Diwali comes around at least I feel like a kid again, watching 'crackers' burst, shutting my ears and running when I know someone has lit a 'bomb', being awe struck at the lights and sounds that these dazzling fireworks create. It a good time of year.

1 Day to go :D :D

Ya I did do the whole count down thingie...it was one day till Diwali and not one day till I left my job lol - thanks tarana I had a real good laugh on that day.

2 days to go :D :D

Haha count down to Diwali.
Love the festival. Will tell you why later...

Yay yay yay....Diwali will be here soon :D

Well what can I say - I just LOVEEEEEEEEE Diwali.
Sure I don't like the noise and air pollution but man I love firework - feel like such a kid when I'm watching them (especially the ones that go up like a rocket and blow up - damn I wish I knew the names of such things).
I would NEVER personally burn crackers because of the pollution and also cause there is tons of better stuff one can do with that money but it's free to watch right.

Also love all the lights all around - shops are lit up, lanterns hang all around, diyas are lit - it's just great - truely festive.

And then the poojas and mithais are another thing. Sure I am totally not into ceremonies and rituals especiallyyyyy religious ones but still it's always fun. The chanting and the aarti and all these other funny things we do. Sure they might hold no essence for me in my 'modern' life but even I can't help but appreciate that such things have a history. They are a part of where we came from.

Well I usually don't do what most do on Diwali (or rather my family). We don't neccessarily buy something new and we don't usually buy gold [but mom does full house cleaning every year without fail :)]. We don't go meeting relatives (don't have too many around). We don't distribute gifts etc either but Diwali is still always great fun.

Where is my life...

Yup I got no life....don't laugh cause you got no life too...
What do you do all day? Wake up - rush to get to work (or school or some other place) - do what you are suppose to do at this place - leave get back home or go somewhere and meet the same people, talk about the same things, give advice you don't believe, complain when you know it will do nothing but make you feel worse, etc etc etc.
I am not anti-routine, or anti-work or anti-friends or anything but when will there be any real pleasure from the external/internal environment you are in?

Drama drama and more drama....

What is life without some drama?

Dilruba

Well no not about a dilruba but the Dilruba song by Kailash Kher
If you haven't heard it yet - you MUST

I love Kailash Khers current few songs from his album Kailasa. All 'teri deewani', 'tauba tauba' and 'dilruba' are totally amazing. This sufi kind of style really suits Kailash Kher. I am not a big fan of his movie songs but a total fan of these 3 songs. Will try and listen to more from this album.

There is also something about the videos....not that I understand all completely but they seems to fit.

Ahhhh I miss college...

I really do. I know what you're thinking - 'but shes back in college to doing that stupid masters'. But it's different. I still have work. The student life was great - especially in college. Was never fond of my school life and in college the additional benefit was I was doing commerce. It's the most useless degree on earth and therefore very easy.
That was the life - no responsibilities (other than getting decent grades - and decent is not even very high), no stress (except for 12 days - one week before the exam and the week of the exams), no failures (failling in commerce is next to impossible), no super management issues and dealing with people (only had to worry about whom to get notes from and therefore be good to them - lol I'm kiddingggggggg was never that kind of person. Haha though this year I did that - took some notes from a female in class I didn't even know). Anyway life never gets as good as it was. That's why it's important to enjoy the present. Make the most of it today because tomorrow you will look back and wish you were back in yesterday. But you can never get back time....

And again I see the divine...

Was totallyyyyy surprised at how many people actually pinged me to ask what I was on about.

Anyway before you get ideas - lightning and thunder are what I consider divine (with a few other things too). I have written posts previously also but I don't know why I have no problem repeating myself. The feeling I get in the pit of my stomach is just unbelievable. Its like a feeling of being somewhere else - being transported to a place that exists but you can't see it. Being high and not having anything else in my mind for those few seconds...totallyyyyyyy divine.

I'm not going through a weird phase, I really am weird...

Okay I'll be honest - this isn't original. A friend of my had her nick as "I'm not going through an odd phase, I really am odd" and I told her I loved it and that I planned to steal it. Lol so I did only I changed odd to weird because that fits better.

I am different and I have no problems accepting that.

It's not bad, it's not good...it just is.

Damn how could I have forgotten - sorry and congratsssssss ghin

Well an online friend of mine got married LAST MONTH and I so totally forgot to wish her.

So dedicated my nick to her.

[Btw Ghin if you would have invited me and giving me a ticket to fly down to attend the wedding I would never have forgotten hehe ;) ]

May ghin and kams life be filled with all the happiness they seek.

Congrats guys...

Do I worry too much, or do others worry too little?...

I was thinking a lot about what I would write in this post but I came to the conclusion that - I worry too much.

How I wish life was one long vacation...

Need I say more ?

Why does he think he is such a stud?

Why do some people (who are real losers) believe they are Gods gift to mankind?

Trying to avoid every mistake can be the biggest mistake

Well every now and then I read The Daily Motivator, and I must admit a lot of what Ralph Morston says makes so much sense. I will be honest - I barely read The Daily Motivator every day but whenever I do, I find it insightful.

To get your dose of Ralph Morstons wisdom, please visit www.greatday.com

To get a dose of my litte wisdom, please visit www.note2self-things2remember.blogspot.com

Go with it

Life can be great when you simply go with it. Instead of excessive worrying or endless analyzing, just make your choice and then move forward with it.

Your first instinct is often your best one, because it comes from your authentic self. When you start taking a lot of other conflicting opinions and perspectives into account, your options quickly shrink.

Certainly it pays to think things through, and to consider the advice of others. Just don't let it all dilute the passion that can energize your life.

Trying to make the perfect decision can often lead to no decision at all. Trying to avoid every mistake can be the biggest mistake, because you also avoid getting anything done.

Though you can plan for the future, you cannot precisely predict it. So go ahead with the best you have, and you'll be completely able to deal with whatever may happen.

Even though it has no guarantees, this day is an incredible opportunity. So step confidently, enthusiastically forward with a smile on your face and go with it.

-- Ralph Marston

Extinct is forever...

Well we ended up talking about The Body Shop the other day and I happened to remember the only 2 things I own from there. Both were a gift given to me by my cousin from HK when she came visiting yearsssssssss ago. I don't remember how long its been but its been very long a minimum of 7 years already if not more. Anyway my cousin said that she thought this would be a perfect gift for me - because I was so much into the environment and natural stuff and all of that.

Anyway these 2 things are a wallet and a pencil box. They are both purplish and have images of animals on them. Its sort of a set. But I always liked the wallet more than the pencil case. Maybe because it was more useful.

Anyway both of these have a line on them - EXTINCT IS FOREVER.

Now I don't remember these items everyday anymore because I don't use them. They are kept somewhere in a never opened drawer in my cupboard and therefore I don't contemplate on the line anymore. Which of course is really sad because the line is great. Extinct is really forever. And we somehow don't realise how hard hitting that is. We never look at things so harshly but we should. Whenever we look at extinction all we think about is the Dodo bird and maybe the whales, sharks and tiger.

Well while its true that tigers, sharks, etc face the danger of extinction, currently, there are approximately 1000-1100 species of birds and mammals that are facing extinction. If invertebrates and plants are included, the total number of species in imminent danger is around 20,000. If we look at the past - It is estimated that about 125 species of birds and 60 species of mammals have become extinct since 1600.

The rate of extinction of species has risen dramatically and we should really sit back and think about why and what we can do about it. We cannot deny that humans are of major cause of species extinctions. We take over their natural surrounding and build what we need to build. I am not against progress and all of that but we never really sit and see LONG TERM IMPACT of our actions. We look maybe 2 - 3 years down the line but not a 100 - 200 years from now. Which is when the lack of certain plants/animals will come back to haunt us. Not only are we destroying natural environments but are also polluting our surrounding horribly. This pollution is only affecting us but affecting all the species around too.

They say that in the jungles of the Amazon and Congo Basins, there are plants that might hold the cure to cancer. Herbal remedies for our fatal illness maybe locked somewhere in these rich forests and what are we doing? Boosting the lumber industry in such regions. Its about time we realised the true cost of our actions.

I gotta stop

Well remember my post which spoke about how I keep repeating stuff. Well apparently I am the only one. And even if other people have their own 'line' its not like my case cause in my case I have way too many lines.
The situation is so bad that even my boss asked me the other day - 'Tell me something Deepali - How Many Times Do You Say "You Know". I think this is way toooo much. Even now while typing I keep feeling this urge to type 'well' and somehow I put it down and realise I have already used it 2 times in the post and any more would be too much.
Well the situation is so bad cause EVERYONE is teasing me about this. Well we all have our quirks right - so this is mine or atleast I think I can say that. And I said 'well' again...aghhhhh

Some of my lines are -
It Depends
You Know
You gotta be kiddin me
Oh come on
Theek hai
Chalta hai
Achaaa tu theher
That is correct
I'll be honest
Supposedly
I assume so - or I would assume so

Apologies

if the last few posts of mine are badly written. I feel the flow sucks but sorry with no computer to do this at leisure, I am just putting down things as they come to mind...

Ganpati is here again

Well that's right - 11 days of frenzied pujas and devotion is back this year. And every year around this time I keep marveling at how wonderful it is that Mumbai celebrates this festival with so much revelry, forgetting daily routines and the aches and pains they bring. Celebrating the arrival of their favourite god. Celebrating for they believe a new day has come. Celebrating because they think that things will change... Devotion of this sort baffles me - but who says I have to understand?
Anyway by day 11 I am usually worrying about the sea - the creatures in it. Its the same with all festivals it seems. Can there really be any salvation for people who pollute the air and water? How can people show their happiness and feel joy at the cost of nature?
I see so many women every now and then, in the trains throw things out into the river just before Bandra station - its okay to pray and chant some things you don't understand - and believe that this will take you to heaven but its not okay to believe that you will go to hell for dirtying the rivers and the seas? Affect the life of marine organisms...
Well I agree that people need a release - they need their Ganpatis and their Lakshmis. They need to forget everything but prayer for few days. They need to dance and sing. But it doesn't need to happen like this.

Anyway I can go on and on. But since I am talking about Ganpati - what saddens me this year to see all these pandals with beautiful ganesh idols inside is that their entrances have pictures of politicians. I mean what the hell why does politics even have to enter a festival and ruin it?
Also like last year, this year too I will most probably not go to any pandal to 'maatha teko'. I don't see what bowing in front of an idol can do for me - if I don't believe it will do anything at all. And like last year my mom is going to be pissed and my sis is going to be a real pain about it. All I would say is bigggg deal. What makes these 11 days more special than others? Just cause we choose them to be? That doesn't make any spiritual sense now. Shouldn't all 365 days be special is the question I always ask - to which I get no satisfactory answer everrrrrr....

Independence Day

[Ya I know 15th August was 10 days ago but home comp's not working, so couldn't post]

Well its just Independence Day and not 'happy independence day' or 'another independence day', because what's added before or after depends on a lot of things. Of course I don't wish to get into that. Why the nick then? Well every time Independence Day comes around I feel its like a birthday. The one day everyone contemplates something about their life. Either the previous year or the last few years or their whole life or the coming year or coming whole life. That's but natural, seeing the sort of day it is. But somehow everytime Independence Day comes around, I actually think about India, its 'freedom', the struggles of its people in the past and the present, etc etc.

Of course not much changes every year - I end up thinking of corrupt politicians, scams, over population, illiteracy, schemes that never seem to work, poverty, unemployment, farmers who commit suicide, slum lords, and a whole list of everything that's wrong with this country - to that list, this year I have added floods and bomb blasts too.
I don't believe this is the India our forefathers envisioned. I don't think this is the India anyone wanted or even wants. Sure we are shining, sure we are the rising star, sure we get compared to China but what are the ground realities? How many Indians are happy? How many Indians are free? Is the India of 2006, the India freedom fighters died for? Are we today worthy of those people dreams, aspirations, hope, death?

The biggest tragedy of it all is that we are part of a county that has such a rich heritage. Such a deep history. A culture that could surpass many, and we do nothing with that. Our past is something we see no value in. Neither do we appreciate the past nor do we think enough about it. Take a small example of yoga. How many of us here are gaga over yoga? Yoga is getting a real hype now only because its gone to the west and become so famous amongst the westerners. We are a totally useless bunch...

The British might have taken a lot away from us, but like the irony that life sometimes like to throw in our face - our strongest weapon in today's economic warfare is something the British bought to us and gave us, whether we wanted it or not - the English language. Haha I cant wait to see China in the next 5 - 8 years, when majority of their 'contributing' population will be english speaking. Where will India be? Watching on TV how members in the Lok Sabha throw things on one another, not able to watch TV because some dude things that everything should be censored, shitting bricks cause we will be importing not only wheat but other food grains too...

We could also have an India that is actually flourishing. An India that thriving. An India that the rest of the world is jealous of. What do we need to get there? I think there is only one thing needed - accountability in our political system. You don't do your job well, your outta here. If we don't have strong, charismatic, visionary leaders, we wont get anywhere.


On the note of freedom - What is freedom anyway? I don't seem to be able to figure. In my mind one has freedom only when one can live life on his/her own terms. How many of us can do that? Very few I think. Sometimes it's not possible to be free, but unfortunately most of us believe that we don't need such freedom. Everything else must come before self. I don't believe in this philosophy. The 'Individual' must come before everything else. By the self coming first here I don't mean politicians filling their pockets. It's all about knowing who you are and standing up for who you are. Fighting for what you believe in. Being open minded enough to take the world in but also being tolerant enough to realise that the world doesn't revolve around you. Buckling down under pressure because other people say something or believe something is not cool. Its not something anyone should accept. Actually nothing should just be accepted. Everything must be realised. Haha, I can already imagine my mom and aunts cringing... we have no future I tell you, not unless we start thinking differently.

Anyway I'm going on a totally different tangent here - will write something more on 'independence day' sometime in the future. Maybe next year....

Home comp's busted :(

Bas ek pal

Well of course this comes from the song and therefore the movie...
But I like the though of it...bas ek pal...just a moment....
life can change in just a moment...
tragedy can strike in just a moment...
magic can happen in just a moment...
an opportunity can be found or lost in a moment...
a brainwave takes a moment...
all i need is a moment...just a moment...bas ek pal

Why why why why

Firstly I was totally surprised that no one asked me what my nick meant. Usually there are atleast a couple of people who comment / answer very strange nicks.
Anyway the 'why why why why' is because I have realised and now days reminded very often that there are certain phases or and actions that I keep repeating - examples - 'you have got to be kidding me', 'the funda is', 'apparently', etc etc.
Now I would think there is nothing wrong with something like this, cause everyone has their own style but now it seems to me that most people dont do such things and therefore when I do, its funny for a bunch of them.
The hilarious things though is this too happens in phases. So today and for the next 2 weeks I will keep saying 'oh come on' and then after 2 weeks it will be 'thats such BS' and then after 2 weeks it will be 'there is NO way'....
Ah well 'the funda is' that 'apparently' 'there is no way' to term this as only my nakhras so 'come on' stop all this BS and let me live in peace...

We all need to do our own thing...

When will I have the luxury?...

Ya ya so I want too many luxuries in my life - so what? Everyone does.

Well anyway this is a different sort of luxury I am talking about - not about being able to fly to another country whenever I felt like it (I think I mention this the most often).

The reason this thought came to mind was because I was in a cab going to college to sign some forms and was going through Marine Drive. It was suchhhhhhhhh a beautiful day. Cloudy but no rain and bright but not hot. The sea of course looked brown but still the effects of the light made it look wonderful. Everything looked so nice. And as I sat looking out the window, taking in as much as I could, I wished I could just get off and sit there the whole day. Go home only when I got tried or bored - neither of which would have happened. But obviously I could not do what I so badly wanted to - not only because of my form signing but more importantly because I had to get to work. If I were in college I could still have skipped class, but you cant bunk work right. That's the luxury I am talking about. I wish I had the luxury of sitting at Marine Drive for a whole day if I desired it...sitting home to read a novel and drink hot chai on a rainy day...getting on a flight and flying off to some place because I wanted to travel lol sorry couldn't resist....

CSI is backkkkkkkkkkkkk

Hell yeah I'm euphoric.

I loveeeee CSI.

But the original and only CSI.

CSI Maimi and CSI NY suck big time. CSI Las Vegas totallyyyyyyyyy rockssssssss.

I am booked on Sunday afternoons between 1-2 p.m.

Where is the peace...

Where is it? I don't see it...
I can't find it...
Do I need it?
Will I be satisfied once I have found it?
But how do I find it? I don't see it...

Well a friend of mine did some soul searching and got quite a bit out of it. I too decided to do some soul searching, but haven't sat down and thought about anything yet...I ask myself if i need to, and I keep getting an answer that says 'yes', when I ask myself why I need to, no real answer comes back. I am content with my life... I have more than what most people would need. Yet there is always this urge for more. And I ask myself - Is there really something like total satisfaction? I don't want this when I am dying. I was peace, peace of mind, and I want it now. Am I in a state of unrest? No. I can go each day without feeling much agitation but I don't feel any peace either...
Is this odd? I don't know.
Am I making sense? I don't know and I don't care
Can I stop asking questions I don't have answers to? I WISH

What I hate more than the Bomb Blasts are the sick people who actually make up hoaxes about more blasts...

What kind of sick pleasure can any one get not only by bringing parts of the city to a stand still, creating panic, getting agencies that would be doing other work involved in something thats just a 'prank' for fun. The worse is the emotions involved. The blasts werent something small. People have to live with that fear for a long time...

The people of this city really need to give up their 'chalta hai' attitude

The original nick was 'The people of this city really need to give up their 'chalta hai' attitude and their great spirit' and so lots of people went on and on about how I could be so silly, and how I had got it all wrong etc etc etc.
Well I didn't get it all wrong - everyone has their opinions and this is what I truly believe. I am not saying don't stand out in the middle of the night distributing water and biscuits to stranger, I am not saying don't stand on roads and help divert traffic cause there aren't enough cops, I am not saying don't rush to the disaster site and help people there. Damn I am so PROUD to be a Mumbaikar because only the people of Mumbai are like this. I was getting home that night around 11:30 in my friends car and I was so overwhelmed looking at common people out on the roads, doing things they didn't have to, just so that someone else from their city was a little more comfortable.
Nor am I saying that everyone should sit at home all day and not do things that they would have/need to. I understand that people sometimes don't have options. They have to do certain things and they have to do them a certain way.
Nor am I saying that common folk should get to the roads, start riots, exploit the situation - even if its for a good cause. No I don't want that.
What I am talking about though is that things SHOULD NOT be back to normal. Bomb blasts are not normal incidents - and therefore this city should not be back to normal. We cant just say 'oh whats happened has happened, what can you do, it was destiny, blah blah blah'. We have to stand up and say enough is enough. We have to stand up and say we want no more of this. I too agree that you cant prevent things like this from happening but there are lots of things that can be done. How about spending more resources on intelligence gathering? How about holding people responsible for shoddy crisis management? How about catching these terrorists and hanging them? How about more security measure on our railways? How about questioning our politicians who only talk big, especially about peace processes? How about putting our foot down and telling Pakistan we will make their life hell if they don't do something about the terrorist organisations? How about teaching kids more about tolerance? How about taking international help (since everyone seems to want to fight terrorism) to actually try and figure what we can do to change the situation in Kashmir? ....
What we can actually do is limitless but the tragedy is that we do nothing. We go back to our normal life. We praise ourselves for bouncing back. We pat ourselves on the back for being so great - greater than any other city would have been in this situation ...
Thats all we do...
Don't you think we should give up our 'chalta hai hota hai' attitude? Don't you think that our 'great spirit' needs to go beyond just helping out during the crisis

Bloggers Park - Mumbai Mirror

Mumbai Mirror has a section called Bloggers Park where they take and issue and pick a few blog entries - usually give 2-3 lines and the blog address. Its very cool since blogs are so big now. Actually goes to show how important blogs have become. I wouldnt be surprised if this feature moved from a page 30 in the physical paper to a page 5 or so. Only problem with people reading the paper offline is that they have to be savvy enough and enthu enough to actually get online and read more. Its an interesting development none the less.

Todays topic was on the Mumbai Blasts (this blog got featured there). Would have provided the link (it was up for a couple of days) but it seems dynamic and therefore the page keeps moving to a new URL everyday.

Bomb Blasts happening in Mumbai...please take care

Very scary - 7 bomb blasts in Mumbai. All blasts happened in trains - 1st class mens compartments - I guess the terrorists decided that to be gentlemen and not hurt women.
Anyway this is totally ridiculous. 7 blasts - just goes to show how vulnerable the people of this city are. The worse part about this blast will be that, Mumbaikars will become survivors and saviors and after 2 days life will be back to normal - and everyone will sing praises about how great the spirit of Mumbai is and nothing will be done to stop this happening again and again and again. I really wish the people of this city would stop accepting these incidents as 'things that just happen' or things that you can predict and prevent. I am not saying things could/should have been stopped and the police and other authorities have not done a good enough job (I don't know about this yet - stuck in office - no TV). But really we should have a better crisis management plan, we should have better intelligence, we should have harsher punishments, we should demand more accountability...

Its about time we start waking up and realising we don't have to exist the way we always have...

Back in town - I wish life was a vacation...

For those of you who don't know, I was out of town - Phuket and Bangkok (from 29th June to 9th July). I had SUCHHHHHHHHH a blast...it was awsome. I wish everday could be a holiday like that. Do nothing other than chill all day. Have fun with friends and relatives. Dance and shout. Sleep late and wake up late. Mannnn thats the life. I now want a VERY early retirement. Oh man 5 star luxury, with a sea view and great weather. Fantastic. I am now counting down the days to my next vacation, which will happen only after a year *sob sob*.

I'm leaving on an aeroplane - unfortunately for you, I'll be back again....

Well yup...flying out today...doesnt feel like it though. I guess on my way to the airport I'll be really excited. Maybe the last few days have been so 'normal' that it doesnt feel like I am going to be flying out...well lets see...have been looking forward to a vacation for so long...of course this isn't a vacation vacation...more like a stressful trip - just out of the country in an exotic location hehe...
Well it should be fun, and I plan to chill out quite a bit...meet new people...unfortunately I will also be making a fool of myself - both at the time of dancing and giving my speech :( but whatever...I HAVE TO enjoy myself cause when I get back...my next vacation will be a long way away and my need for a vacation would have increased 10x

Nisha would be proud of me...

Yup...I got nail polish on my toes and will get some nail polish on my hands too, within the next 3 hrs...and I will have polish on my nails for the next whole week....



I hate it...

Someone please explain to me why Mittal so badly wanted Arcelor...

Vivek - To produce 3 times more steal then the competition.
Bims - same reason microsoft would want to buy apple
Mahesh (K not M) - Mittal wanted Arcelor for two reasons...
one...to become the biggest steel producing company in the world..
two...his ambition later was followed with his ego...

Whats with all the lightning?

Well 46 people have died and many more injured due to lightning strikes this year. Never before have I heard of more than 3 deaths due to this reason. I am sure lots of people are worried about lightning striking them this year.
Of course there has been more lightning this year than most years...
So my question is, what happens when you start to fear what you consider divine?
How does this question pop up here you wonder?
Well I consider lightning and thunder divine...they are totally MIND BLOWING. Nothing gives me a bigger thrill than watching lightning and hearing the thunder that follows...its music to the soul...but I will be honest...this year even I am a little weary of lightning. I still think it totally rocks...but I wont go out of my way this year to try and catch a glimpse of some.

Think Differently...

That what I have to do.
Thats what I am going to be getting paid for.
Thats whats going to help me do my job.
Thats whats going to help me make more money.
Thats whats expected from me....

Flying in 9 days...

Well nope I am not doing a count down...but I wasnt fast enough in changing my nick, so Trig (who says he keep a track of all things bolt - or all things that use to be bolt hehe) said 'whats going on, I see 10 yesterday, I see 10 today, whats going on?' so I changed it and made it 9...and that was yesterday. Its 9 today too when it should be 8 hehe...but trig wasnt online today ;)
Anyway I am excited and worried like I said before but it seems so long ago since I sat in a plane (which was just one year ago - which means I am getting too use to the idea of travelling). Of course last year when I sat in the plane I hadn't watched any episode of NatGeo Investigates (hehe they usually investigate lots of place crashes) so I will be a little nervous this time around. Doesnt help that I am flying in the monsoons or with a new airline (Thai - we usually fly Cathay - of course we have always ended up in only HK and Manila).
Anyway I am already looking forward to next years trip - which would be at least HK if no where else. Love the city. Maybe I can check out Dubai.
I am soooooooooooo grateful that I have family scattered all over :D

Flying in 10 days...

Yup, flying out on the 28th...10 days away...both excited and nervous...slightly depressed too because my HK plan got cancelled *sob sob*, but bleh I'm still glad to be going on vacation. My new worry though - neither are the dances ready, nor is the speech I have to give. Hopefully by the time its my turn to give the speech, I will know a lot of people there and they will think I'm real nice and sweet, and so they wont make fun of me when I have to give the speech. Lets see.
Anyway the timing of the trip is bad - Got a new boss and things are getting ummm interesting at work. But I do need a break - clear my head out, plan ahead. Meet new people. Do new things - like dancing in front of 100+ people aghhhh...Take lots of snaps yayyyyy - this is my fav. Try and have a good time :)

Back to college?...

I'm thinking of doing MCom this year, to get my 16th year of education (incase I do plan to go abroad in the future). Lets see if I can get back into my previous college. Getting in might not be too tough, seeing how they give prefrence to students on certain criteria - and I was in a good handful of societies and clubs and really did do some work for them. Lets see what happens...I will know by the 22nd.

Rakhi Sawant - you're a dumbass...

Ya she is...I havent seen anyone more idiotic than her.
I mean who else is so retarded to dance near naked in 'hot and steamy' music videos viewed by thousands of people and then come out and say something like 'I am an Indian woman - kissing like that is not right a peck on the cheek is okay'.
For crying out loud if you want to make an issue of a guy grabbing you and kissing you, thats what you should make an issue about - if you are not a willing participant, its wrong and thats about it. That's all anyway should say. Not idiot things like 'I am an India woman'. Ridiculous.
Man even publicity stunts have no class these days.

Gooooo Justine Henin Hardenne...You will always be a superstar Federer - even if you never win the French Open...

Well what do you know, Justine Henin Hardenne (pronounced as Justine en en ar den) won the French Open Womens Trophy this year too. Havent watched much of her expect at the last French Open. She moves real fast, which is something I hate in players who arent my favourites hehe, but since I have no favourite in the womens draw, its good fun. The one thing that you realise about Justine, that you dont of most players is how her head doesnt move much and honestly since I am so new to tennis, I dont know the significance of head position (maybe its got somehting to do with balance or follow through), but its so obvious in Justines game and really catches the eye when they show replays of her shots. Well good on her for winning the trophy for the 3rd time. I think it goes to prove that once you set your mind to it, you can achieve whatever you desire. She not only fully recovered from her viral disease but also goes and wins grand slams. Its just fantastic. Way to go Justine.

Well the obvious happened - Federer lost to Nadal (dont like him much - nearly always wins when he is playing Federer). Ofcourse clay courts arent Federers strengths but I do wish he would have won. Of couse he needs to change his game. I think he should try new things, move into the net, try and hit the baselines more often, try a double handed back hand etc. I dont know enough about the technicalities of the game to make comments but he really needs to do new things. Maybe he should, just to amuse himself. He wins so easily most of the time that too. He doesnt have to do fancy things. He doesnt have to stay on court for 4 - 5 hours often. It sort of hampers him when he needs all these skills the most. Anyway I dont see Federer wining the French Open anytime soon. Maybe some day he will get 'lucky'....I'll be hoping for that day...

Please leave a comment...

To all those of you who ACTUALLY read my blogs, that too on a regular basis, please leave a comment atleast every now and then.

A new day has come...

Turning over a new leaf....life isnt always what you make of it...but it doesnt have to be totally miserable. There has to be a point when you put your foot down and say you have had enough. That point has come for me. No more bitching...no more sobbing...no more complaining...
Its time to use my energies in better things. To be more positive. To get better results. Its about time I stopped wasting my time and my life. Its time I stopped blaming everything else other than myself. I will now take responsibility of my actions....

2:26....6:06 on 6-6-06

Well I couldnt think of anything to put down so I put down the time which was 2:26 p.m.

And then I realised that today is 6-6-06 so I thought I'd put that down but didnt want to change 2:26. Ahhhhh the trouble we all have letting go....we should learn to let go....you get better things in life sometimes. And then I thought of why not 6:06 too...crazy day AND time...

Well and since today morning some people have been telling me about Omen and showing crossed fingers and all of that and I didnt quite get it...I thought it was just because the day was so coincidental but just a while ago I realised that 666 is the number of the devil...yaaaaaaaaaaaaaa I know ...I'm slow....but thats only at times...and I'm sure you will disagree...but whatever...

Anyway nothing really bad happened today...only good things in life from now on....

All this negativity

I dont want anymore of it...
Whats done is done...
For me its over...
What good does it do...
Need to learn to move on...
I will die trying but Im going to try like hell not to be negative anymore...
I have way too many good things in my life and its about time I start appreciating them. I had a nice big venting session and I do believe that a lot of 'venom' is out of my system. Maybe not directed in the correct way and at the correct people or for the correct reasons but I am done bitching. Life is too good to waste away being negative...and all the horrible 'vibes' all of this creates...I dont want any more of it. I want to be dedicated to my work. I dont want to make stupid excuses. I am done with that too. Its about time....

Did I already mention that I hate the rains?...Incase I havent - I HATE THE RAINS...

Yup I hate the rains....

The Euro Mix

Of the song 'Tu Hi Meri Shab' is just toooooooooooo 'hot and happenin'.
Love the way it starts. Going to try and get the first 42 seconds in a loop. Lets see if I have any success. One thing is for sure...I'll end up listening to that A LOT...

Intelligent but not smart

Well I know someone who is intelligent (actually very) but not smart...most people think that being smart and intelligent are the same...but I disagree and very strongly...the 2 are very different and its not about being book smart v/s street smart. Its more about having knowledge but not enough wisdom. Its about seeing things but not through them. Its about realising but not accepting. Its about knowing better but not doing better. Its about knowing how bad the darkness is but not removing the blindfold that covers your eyes. I feel sorry for this person because this person is intelligent enough to be greater than great but just isnt smart enough to get there...

The rains are going to be here soon :'(...

I hate the rains...
Leave aide all that crap about romantic...leave aside all the garam chai and pakoras (i never seem to have the either...atleast not great garam chai)...leave aside the greenery....
Think about the muck....think about being drenched...think about the horrid auto ride because of the oh so very very bad road....think about feeling cold to the bone...think about worrying about keeping your things dry....about your clothes not drying...about running to shut all windows as soon as a shower starts...wet curtains...wet floors...wet stairs...if your unlucky broken bones...also in recent times worrying about the floods...the lack or lateness of trains...the worry about no electricity...the problem of traveling...of spending money on taxis...of wet shoes and socks...of wet seats because some stupid ppl keep their windsheeters on forgeting they are dripping and that people will get into the rick/train/cab after them...the worms...the DULL DEPRESSING days...the longing to be home...the longing to breath fresh air...
Nothing nice about the rains as you can see....

Additions-
The heavier bags because of carrying umbrellas...the even heavier bags because of wet umbrellas. Getting to work/school/college etc and then trying to find a place to keep you umbrella/sheeter to dry and not being successful. The depressing days...the dark clouds...

The only things that TOTALLY ROCKS about the monsoons is the LIGHTENING and the THUNDER...which is totally spoilt by the rains. Cant watch any cause you cant stand out in the rain, cant hear much because the raindrops make a lot of noise. Cant really take pics/videos cause camera isnt water proof...

I hate the rains...

Manzille Revisited...

Rahul Sharmas latest song...
If you haven't heard it yet, please get your hands on it and listen to it.
The funny thing is that everyone I have forwarded the song to, has liked if not loved it...so check it out.

Why is it that only the medical students are taking part?

Talking about the protest against reservation for backward classes in higher education and our premier institutions. Do we really want 50% reservations in our top colleges or for that even in higher institutions? Is it worth giving seats to people from backward classes (I believe it should be based on economics and not caste in the first place) and bring down the level of not only graduating students (and therefore the institution) but also have people who might not be competent enough and thus bring down the over all functioning of small economies all over, over a long period of time?
What I believe is that having these seats in our colleges doesnt makes sense. If there should be reservation, it should be at our school levels (accommodation is a big problem - we might end up having lots of children who cant afford schooling because there are no seat.
What should also be done is to give blackward classes more vocation training so that they can stand on their own feet. Give them better loan schemes. Financial aid to help them start their own small business.

Im so sick and tired of vote bank politics.

Oh god...everytime he says 'I can't'...I just die a little....

I'm talking about none other than Hritik Roshan in the new Hide and Seek ad. Man the way he says 'I can't' is just too hot. A lot of people find him yuck, but after seeing the promos for Krissh, I realised that I missed watching him on screen for a long time. In regards to his new hairstyle - he looks better in shorter hair. Though his hair on its own looks really good. I wonder what kind of styling hes doing.
Well make as much fun of me as you like but I will admit it openly - I'm a huge fan of Hritik Roshan and he looks hot.

Cant wait for the Da Vinci Code..or for that matter even Krrish

Well I'm not going to talk about the whole controversy surrounding the Da Vinci Code. All I'm going to say is that I'm WAITING for the movie to release soon. I read the Da Vinci Code and enjoyed it (except for the end - all of Dan Browns books end so horribly). I remember what a huge fan I was of Leonardo Da Vinci, when I learnt of him in my 'cultural history' class. He was a GENIUS.
Also cant wait for Krrish...or Krish or Kkrish ...or how ever it is spelt. Havent seen Hritik Roshan in suchhhhhhhh a long time. Of course he is soooooooooooo unbelievable in the 'Hide and Seek' ad...

A tribute to Jackie Cochran...

On May 18, 1953, Jackie Cochran became the first woman to break the sound barrier. She was flying a Sabrejet F-86. She was also the first woman to land and take off from an aircraft carrier, the first woman to pilot a bomber across the North Atlantic, and the first pilot to make a blind (instrumental) landing. She still holds more distance and speed records than any pilot living or dead, man or woman.
Source - todays TOI.

She was orphaned at a young age and grew up in poverty. She was not attracted to aviation from the start. Her dream was to start her own cosmetic company. She got her flying license only because she believed that it would help her sell her products all across the country.

Now thats a super achiever. And one for woman power too...

Love Guru...not the radio types...

Surprisingly I have had a number of friends over the past few years asking me for advice on their 'love life' issues. I mean jeez I would obviously be the worse person to ask right? Because I dont believe in such nonsense. But surprisingly I end up giving good advice. I guess its a matter of common sense and trying to figure out what people are thinking and how they are thinking what it is they are thinking. Of course I can't quantify how much any of my advice really did wonders but its good to feel all important and know that what your saying might really help someone and change the direction of their life hehe okay I not such a romanticized feeling but still its a lot of fun....all th plotting and planning and trying this and that.
Of course I have sat back and tried to figure why these few people have asked ME for help. And I end up feeling sorry for them. How tragic that they have to come to someone like me to get advice...hehe...jk....[I know at least one of them will be reading this for sure :P]
Naah I somehow end up giving good advice.

'Not the radio types' is because each and every channel seems to have some sort of show that revolves around these issues. And all those shows are too pathetic...

JATC...

A tribute to our once popular everday hang out...
The CCD Iced Eskimo is great...

The guy thing...

Well no this isnt about the 'guy thing' you thought about...whatever that be.
This is about the 'guy gang(s)' . Whether it be work or anywhere else...ever noticed how guys definitely have their own gangs or groups? They might mingle with women and have mutliple 'groups' but every guys will be in a guy gang. And most of the time women are totally off limits to these groups and the discussions that happen in the groups. Even if the discussions are not "typical guy talk". Women too have their own gangs I am sure but its usually related to things other than work that are discussed - maybe kids, home, new nail polish, etc. But with men, they discuss work related stuff that is not shared with their female counterparts. Yes I am pissed for guys hanging out together and learning/knowing things (because other guys are disseminating this knowledge/new etc) that even women in the workplace (or otherwise) have the right to know. Sure life isnt fair, and sure people are not equal but is it then alright to discriminated some (on grounds of gender) because they are only part of the 'team' and not the group??? ....

I can't help it...I dont want to live in denial...

Some days you just feel like shit...you cant help it...you just feel horrible...either with or without reason. Well never really without reason but the reasons are not evident enough. I think you should embrace it and take something from it...otherwise those feelings are wasted...sure its not easy to be bright and optimistic when your down but at least at the end of the day you can tell yourself that you are doing something about it.
Well actually to be honest I dont know what prompted that line...I know...sounds lame..but I'm sitting here trying to remember and I cant...so I thought why not write some crap that will make some people go oooooooooooh ahhhhhhhh...

All politicians giving sops and making stupid promises should be banned...

I thought I'll try and not put anything about politics and politicians up - at least not for a while...but couldnt help it.
First its the 50% reservation in education institutes
Then its reservation in the private sector
Now its rice for Rs.2 per kg/ free colour televisions / free computers
No increase in fuel prices even the the price of crude oil has shot up
The list just goes on and on...Will there ever be an end to vote bank politics? I wish there was some kind of punishment for politicians doing such ridiculous non sense...I don't want politicians who go out and give away stuff to people (even those these might make life better for those 'lucky' people). I want politicians who do their jobs. I want politicians who are honest. I want politicians who are dedicated. Politicians who think for the better of the country. Not their pockets, not their parties, not their positions...Am I asking for too much? I dont think so.

Beautiful Cloudy Days...

Nothing beats cloudy days...except during the monsoons...of course I dont mind at all if I'm at home...but hate the rains if I have to get out. Anyway the last few days were cloudy and it was all so beautiful. Also beat the heat a little...cloudy days are better in summer than they are in winter...I also read in the news paper that it drizzled...dont know abt that...no one around me mentioned experiencing anything of the sort. Anyway the cloudy days are gone...so will my nick...Hope we have some more soon. Of course I hate that I cant enjoy them since Im not at home anymore. Usually at work and indoors at all hours of the day. If I were home I would have sat and read a book on the terrace. Soaked in the nice cooler weather and beautiful skyline. Taken in the fresh air and enjoyed.....none of that for me anymore :(

Hummmmmmmm the first mangoes of the year...

Well the king of fruits is here...at least for a while. At a mango 2 days ago...D E L I C I O U S....
Of course I'm picky when it comes to mangoes (yup just like everything else). Nothing by alphanso mangoes...they are ABSOLUTELY DIVINE. Have decided not to binge on them...look like that will not be too tough. Already late into the season and also mom not buying too much. Plus this year I'm at work all day, so maybe I'll get a little mango on some nights...
P.S. - Cant believe the rain will be here soon again...

Why do you think you're immortal....

Not related to all the deaths happening all around...Though about this long ago....
We all feel we are immortal....I cant even imagine that I could die today....and to think of it, what would it take? Nothing - a speeding car, a slip onto the tracks, a fall that could break my neck, a bomb in the train, a maniac running around with a knife...so many things that do happen all the time could happen to me. There is no reason that they wont happen to me but yet I believe that they wont...atleast they wont today...crazy isnt it...especially when you know death is inevitable....

Politics everywhere...I just hate it...

I do really hate politics...not like Indian politics - i.e. governtment agencies etc. But actual 'politics'...what happens everywhere in all our lives at some time or the other. The worse part is politics is omnipresent...At work, in families, between friends, in politics (no I would never forget that there is politics in politics), in schools, colleges, in our lives, everywhere.....even inside us....

What the **** is wrong with the people of Gujarat...

It seems like all they want to do is riot...I cant seem to understand what has happened to the state. I would never have though of Gujarat to be the state that break out into riots everytime something happened. I'm not saying breaking down a 200 year old shrine is not big...but come on to start murdering people..thats down right ridiculous. The reason I wouldnt have picked Gurarat as such a state is because people there are interested in making money...real money...big money...the logic in my head behind this is long...so I wont get into that...
Maybe its that people in Mumbai are very indifferent. I dont know. I have said before that our chalta hai attitude is a draw back sometimes. Sometimes I think its good. I remember there being a similar order here to break down all shrines that have cropped up on pavements and roads because these were being used to store ammunition and narcotics. I dont think too many people went crazy when that happened here. Maybe its not that other people are toooooo emotional, maybe its that we are too detached...or maybe it is because we believe that we will always bounce back. So if the officials want to tear all of these down, let them and we will build new ones. Or maybe we (Mumbaikars) are smart and we know whats right. What the point of a temple/mosque that is used to hide guns and drugs. We rather not have such 'places of worship'...we can go put our Rs.2 and say our prayers elsewhere...

R.I.P P.M.

Never followed politics until 2 years ago - In my opinion Pramod Mahajan, came second after Atal Bihari Vajpayee in the BJP. I'm sure he will be missed. What would be interesting to see is what this vacuum will do in/for the BJP and its members.

How did we get this way?...

BITTER........................ Shallow.............................. Angry

Hippocrates .................................. MEAN

irate ........ self concieted .... Cruel

............ Cheap.......... Idiotic ...... Disappointed
Unhappy........... SCARED ............. slow
COLD ........ stupid ............ dull ........... numb