All we have is dreams...

Yes I corrected it to 'all we have are dreams' - thanks to Nisha whose question to me was - what sort of english is this -this is the same person who put up a sign saying 'Please cover your heads at the puja' - lol my aunt just asked her one question too - so how many heads do you have Nisha?

Anyway was watching a movie - Between Strangers - and don't know but I held on to the line. At least it's food for tough...

HTML is a nightmare...

Well was trying to change the code (template) of my blog and was super frustrated because I would have to make a change, save it, publish it, check the blog, check out if the change I wanted was done or not, if not then figure out what changed, go back to the template and undo the change, publish and then change something again.

Don't have to bother with that anymore because the new blogger allows customization in a very simple way....

You're Beautiful...

For those who don't know, 'you're beautiful' is a song by James Blunt. I love it but I don't know why.

Anyway lyrics of songs make the most interesting nick names at times because it makes people wonder what is up. I mean instead of 'you're beautiful', I was going to put up 'we shared a moment that will last 'till the end', which would have got tons of people asking me what the hell I was talking about haha. Or even 'but it's time to face the truth, I will never be with you'. At least some of my friends would have pinged me asking me about whom I was talking.

Anyway try and check out the song. The lyrics of the song are -

My life is
brilliant.

My life is brilliant
My love is
pure.
I saw an angel.
Of that I'm sure.
She
smiled at me on the subway.
She was with another man.
But I won't lose no sleep on that,
'Cause
I've got a plan.

You're beautiful.
You're beautiful.
You're beautiful, it's
true.
I saw your face in a crowded place,
And I
don't know what to do,
'Cause I'll never be
with you.

Yes, she caught my eye,
As we walked
on by.
She could see from my face that I was,
Fucking
high,
And I don't think that I'll see her
again,
But we shared a moment that will last 'till the
end.

You're beautiful. You're beautiful.
You're beautiful, it's true.
I saw your face in
a crowded place,
And I don't know what to do,
'Cause I'll never be with you.

La la la
la la la la la la

You're beautiful. You're
beautiful.
You're beautiful, it's true.
There must be an angel with a smile on her face,
When she
thought up that I should be with you.
But it's time to
face the truth,
I will never be with you.

Dedication without passion?...

Is it possible to have Dedication without Passion?

I think so...

Is it possible to have Satisfaction without Passion?

I think so...

Is it possible to have Happiness without Passion?

I don't know...

Marriages, Marriages & more Marriages

And again I repeat myself -

Indians are obsessed about marriages.

I attended a sangeet party last night and about a week ago came to know that a colleague is engaged and will be married sometime this year, and also have a friend who will be married next month. I also got news of school friends (not in touch with them so heard from a friend I happened to bump into) - one of which got engaged this December, another got married a few months ago.

In the next 2 - 3 years, I would have heard of so many more people I know, getting married. I most probably will get invited to some too. And I can't help but think this is soooo wrong.
I mean how can anyone get married because -
1) They are of marriageable age
2) They want to get 'settled down'
3) They want to have children
4) They are lonely and want companionship
5) They won't find a better prospect.
6) They want financial security - and any other security
7) They want their partner to be only theirs.
etc etc etc

Now there is nothing wrong with these reasons if you want to get married period. But people want to get married and be happy too. I mean really if you do something so drastic (life altering), for reasons that are so wrong, then how are you going to he happy?

I believe that people don't even understand what a marriage is. It's not an institution, it's not a spiritual bonding, it's not a way to make someone more loyal. If you ask me what a marriage is, I would tell you in two words what a marriage really is. It is a legal agreement. That's it - nothing more and nothing less. It legitimizes a relationship.

In life you got to the things for the right reasons. And you must understand what is right and what is logical.

What is the right reason to get married? Well I don't know but for me it's none of the above. I think IF I EVER did get married it would be because everyone around me would be forcing me to marry the person I was living in with and I would finally give up to get some peace of mind.

And let me not get started about HOW people get married.
Man soooooo much money spend on a few days worth of rituals and partying. Not cool. I am sure I could go on a world trip, thrice over, with the kind of money spent on some of the weddings I have attended recently.
I understand 'celebrating' and all of that but this is totally insane, especially in todays day and age when people get divorced so quickly.
Anyway we Indians - we will always be obsessed with marriage.

So many serial killers suddenly?...

Well the real question isn't about so many serial killers, as much it is as 'suddenly'.
And that isn't a real question either.

Because there are lots of sickos out there. And a lot of serial killers. (I am sure there are so many murders that haven't been traced to be a 'signature' of a serial killer as yet.)

It's just that as a nation we choose to believe that serial killers, paedophiles don't exist amongst us. We don't believe things like child molestation, incest, cannibalism etc happen.

And when something as big as what happen in Noida, becomes breaking news, everyone eats it up cause it's so 'unbelievable'. And then the new channels go on this crazy mode where all they talk endlessly about is serial killers. And then the police also SUDDENLY start finding serial killers everywhere.

I think we have to start believing that there are BAD things out there. That people who look 'normal' might have 'conditions' that many of us don't understand. It's about time we realized that things 'like these' aren't just a phenomenon in the West and that all this stuff doesn't happen because 'those people' are 'dirty'.

If you don't believe the problem exists, how will you find a solution?

No TV :'(

I already have borderline depression...

Lost track of Lost this year because of the stupid ban on Star Movies in Mumbai.

Now I am loosing track of Law and Order SVU *sob*

I was also just getting hooked onto Grey's Anatomy...

Have to start taking tough stands...I have to do the dirty work...

Got a promotion and realised that I now have a more 'organizational' thought process. Obviously part of my responsibility is to see that the organization succeeds not just my projects but I never realised that I would be taking this so seriously.
I was taking decisions everyday when I was running projects but those were easy decisions. The decisions I have to make now are tough decisions because now my job is more about 'people management'. I am going to be having a lot of meanings and telling people where and how they are screwing up. And maybe also the consequences of their mess ups.
Well it is dirty work but I will do it...

Helping Hands are better than Praying Lips...

Good intentions, without actions, are useless.

Evolution...

Don't know if I have written about this already, but I totally believe in the theory of evolution, not mainly because it makes the most sense but because I can see with my own eyes that everything is evolving. Evolving today, evolving now. What was a hundred years ago, isn't the same today. Look at diseases becoming more virulent, look at diseases jumping animals, look at new diseases like SARS, this is all because viruses are evolving.

Anyway I also believe Evolution of one thing causes a chain reaction. If evolutions of something, doesn't cause a reaction, I believe that which has evolved will either change again or will perish. That which has evolved and survived, has made other things also evolve.
Also evolution isn't necessarily of living, breathing, growing species. It also happens in inanimate objects. My whole though on evolution started up because we were talking about 'gratuity' in office. Now my knowledge on gratuity and other taxes is very limited but I know that you will get gratuity back, if you work for 5 years with a company. I couldn't help but think how archaic this law was, especially today and especially in the newer industries and especially in the bigger cities. Today job security is never top of mind. Professionals today are confident in their ability to get jobs. What people look for is better salaries, better job satisfaction, better work culture. This requires many times to switch jobs, which obviously means that people will not be at any company for 5 years. Bottom line, the work environment is changing. The law should be changed so that the 'aam aadmi' or 'salaried middle class' don't feel like they are being robbed of their hard earned money.

Will this happen? I don't know when but I do believe that the law will have to change. It will have to evolve...

0 ambition...

I have been asking myself all sorts of questions but like always come up with nothing.
The first of the questions was the easiest and I have a satisfactory answer. The rest I am still struggling with. This line of question is being pursued because I believe I have no ambition but a lot of ability, and that ability is useless unless there is ambitions. While goals and targets are just as good to see you get to some place, if you have no ambition you don't have goals unless someone sets them for you. The problem, with someone else deciding your goals is that unless they want lots done by you, you will never realise your true potential and never your heart's desire.


1> Are people born with ambition?
I never believe that people are born with anything. Strong believer of nurture over nature. The only thing you really get from parents are physical - features, illnesses, etc. Things like attitude, personality etc, I believe we pick up as we go along and therefore I don't believe that people are born with ambition.

2> Can you develop ambition?
Obviously. Cause if you aren't born with it, it's something that you will develop. This lead me to the more correct question of whether ambition could be developed consciously. Consciously meaning developing ambition with the intent of developing ambition.

3> Assuming ambition can be developed consciously, how does one develop it?
This I still can't figure. Keep working at something? Set goals for self that are difficult? Look at what you might like doing and do it even if it's not something you do regularly? A little of all of the above? I don't know...I wonder if I ever will.

The Chill

Got out of my office building this evening at around 8 p.m. and realized how cool (even cold) it has suddenly become. Of course the entrance to the building has this very high ceiling and these wide walls and therefore the wind really blows there but even as I was sitting the rickshaw, I nearly shivered cause not only was it windy but it was a cold wind.
I feel unhappy that I am in an air conditioned room all day long and am missing out on this fantastic weather. Even when I am home it's either in my room in front of the comp or in the hall in front of the TV - makes me feel guilty about having a terrace.
Maybe this should be my new year resolution - to enjoy 30 mins of fresh air either early in the morning or at night when I am at home. Lets see I'll give it a shot from tom.

Happy New Year

Happy New Year people...

For me (even though December 2006 has been so super) -

No New Year Resolutions - stopped making those a few years back when I realised I don't keep them.

No desires or expectations - except not feeling bad about 2007 getting over, on 31st Dec 2007.

No hopes or dreams - never had any. But if in 2007 I accomplish great things I will be happy.

No goals or ambitions - going with the flow as always.

Though I do wish that all your hope and dreams become realities and that you can accomplish all your ambitions and succeed in all your resolutions.

Have a great 2007.