Waiting for the sun to rise...

Here I am at 5:11 AM, not wide awake but not half asleep either...waiting for the sun to rise.

For some reason I always watch the 1st sunrise of the New Year. And since I am not the kind of person who would wake up (and stay up after having slept properly) to watch night turn into day, I always end up staying up till 7 AM or so.

This year sunrise is going to happen at 7:11 AM but obviously it will get light by 6:30-6:45 AM or so, which makes it better because I have a little over an hour to waste away.

Last year I wrote down in the early dawn why it was that I though I have made this a ritual. I sounded very lame with the whole 'new day new beginning' rubbish. Honestly I don't think it's symbolic because I don't need this symbolism in my life. Accept and move on is something I tell myself to do all the time.

I think there are 2 other reasons I do this every year -

1) When I first started doing this I think it was as a sign of rebellion. You know someone staying up till 7 AM to do something like wait for daybreak is not something that my parents really understand. I think the first few times I told them I wanted to do this (back then maybe the symbolism was needed) they would tell me to shut up and go to sleep. I honestly don't know how many times I have done this but I remember 3 in the past distinctly with 2 happening the last 2 years. It's a great feeling to actually do something you want to do, which people don't think you should bother doing.

2) I rarely see a sunrise. When I was in school once in a while I would catch one either because I was studying too late or waking up too early to study or to go for sports day or to attend some extra tuition etc. Now it's not important to see a sunrise. Not important at all but I like it. I like how night turns to day. I love watching the moon in the early morning. I love the different shades of blue the sky turns in the span of a few minutes. The chill of the early hours. I love 'feeling' life come alive around me - the birds chirping, the sounds of the dhobis washing clothes somewhere, a few people venturing out for their morning walk. The last star fading. I guess I love the idea of watching such rapid (beautiful) change happening. Since on New Years, I am up till at least 3 AM usually, it firstly becomes a lot easier to stay up and secondly if I watch the sunrise on the 1st of January itself, I fill I have finished a task I was suppose to compete at least once in the year.

Wow enough of rambling. It's 5:23 AM. The net sucks, I have a stand-by CPU which doesn't even have MS office forget my documents, music, videos etc. So every minute just seems very long. I do have the CD 'Rock On' (which I haven't seen as yet) but I will have to go to the hall and unlock the doors and turn everything on etc and I am too lazy.

Well anyway don't know what I will do for the next hour but I am sure I won't sleep before 7:15. No way am I going to stay up this late and miss the sunrise.


Happy 2009 :D